Mini story 3.0

Salam. 

I know its almost 3am. Blame my overthinking habit. 

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Mini story 3.0

Overachiever.

Don't you think someday you might hit its limit?

Limit that looked so far before, but now?

Just a few steps, you might fall into pit.

Pitch black.

Maybe you might be able to crawl out of it.

Maybe.

Or you thinks you're out of it.

And you are not the same again.

But you are you. 

Suddenly lot of fears starting to surface.

Fears that you thought that you never had before.

The anxiety that you thought just another tremor, palpitations.

And overthinking start taking over your sleep.

Sometimes you cries to sleep.

And every songs you heard are related to you.

A: Dude, you sounds crazy!

B: Am I?

A: I dunno. Everyone have their own problems and own ways to solve it. Maybe it just your own way.

B: *silent. Stare blanky on the spining fan.

The night feels longer than usual.

B: If someday I fall, or lost my sanity, will you be there?

A: *silent. Maybe the walls can heard his thinking.

B: Maybe i pushed too far. I'm too hard to understand. Even for myself to digest my own......

A: Tricky question. Kau tak pernah tak sewel.

B: Serius.

A: Serius habis. Kau pelik. Aku pelik. Kita tak sama. Our system is made just for youself. Itu apa yang Tuhan cipta. Ada sebab kenapa. Dan Allah tak membebankan hambaNya dengan apa dia tak mampu, just nice ikut kemampunan dia. Sebab Allah Maha Mengetahui.

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Long day. Long journey. I need to sleep. 

Nights.

Salam

Mini story 2.0

Salam.
Mood gila. Lagu mellow. Tgh follow drama pun melodrama plus thriller.

Hidup sendiri macam takde genre. Still in transition chapter. Nanti bila start chapter baru, supposed to be more excited and horrifying maybe? Haha.

Trip Bandung- Jakarta tak nampak lah gaya nak tulis. Sorry haha.
Trip Sydney? Maybe. Best. Eye opener. New culture. New people. Totally adaption switch kena on. Seronok tulis. Sebab side of Sydney yg beta melawat, typical plus non typical maybe. City (yg famous je sempat g)- of course typical. Tu pun city x abes pusing, maybe nnt blh dtg lg since accommodation dh confirm ada hahaha. Blue Mountain- maybe not utk yg bukan kaki nature. Yg pasti, worth it biarpun xblh mati dlm masa terdekat, byk sgt hutang. Huhu..

Tak semestinya, blh travel kaya. Kadang2 plan, usaha cari duit and tekad membantu utk travel. Nampak kaya kan? Kaya hutang HAHAHA!

Kenapa mini story 2.0?

Sebab Dreamer is 1.0. Siap sampai 5 chapters. Suka chapter 1 je. Imaginasi mmg liar. Macam salah. Haha
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Mini story 2.0 - KENAPA
#ps: just fiction. Jangan perasan acah2 serupa ngn senario kau! Semua cte aku mostly fiction, imagination.🌈

Kenapa?
Bila A suka B mesti ada C, maybe juga D? Entah.
Kadang2 B bukan suka sangat pun, just test market? Mungkin tengah buktikan sexual orientation? Atau mungkin bosan atau takut lonely?
Apapun jangan jadi org ketiga. Bahaya.
Kawan pun risau nampak bila kita ada aura nak jadi org ketiga. Tiba2 mesej pjg berjela cerita bahana org ketiga.
Faham. Dia pernah rasa mungkin. Kenapa tetiba?
Jangan tanya. Nanti realiti yg tak diingini jd kenyataan.
Tanya. Kenapa? Jealous ke? HAHAHA *(mmg layak gelak guling2)
Jawapan dlm 2 bentuk; jwpn dari aspect org kedua (bf/gf org tersebut) dan dari dia.
Yg penting jawapan dari dia- Tak. Padan muka. Friendzoned! HAHAHA

Oit! *Terkejut tesedak milo dinosaur yg tengah minum.
Kedai mamak. Jam 10pm. Ada game rasanya, bising occasionally.

Berangan eh kau?!
Sentiasa berangan kalau newsfeed fb, timeline twitter, ig bosan. Tak de buku di tangan. Imaginasi menakluk masa yg bakal terbuang lagipun.

Weyh. Kenapa ada org suka kat kau eh? Muka erghh no. Mulut puaka. Perangai ahhh jangan sebut lah. Hahaha *jelingan maut.

At least, ada org nak aku. Kau? HAHAHA *dia tarik kerusi, duduk di hadapan aku. Block view mamat comel meja depan yg sibuk main phone dari tadi. Haisshhh. Milo aku pun diminumnya.

Then, kenapa break up dgn previous girl? Kenapa dgn girl yg ni, serius?
Aku selalunya tak suarakan soalan2 macam ni, sebabnya ada org find it uncomfortable. I'm a straightforward person. Tu pasal orang tak suka aku. Equal layanan. No gender bias. Unless yg berkenan of course or masuk dgn soul aku. Tak ramai.

Kenapa? Aku jawab yg second question dulu. Kenapa serius kali ini? Sebab aku rasa dia perfect utk aku. Aku tak perfect. Tapi dia buat aku rasa perfect.
*Jawapan dia. Maybe cliche. Tapi utk org yg byk cawangan (read mesra katanya), nampak tekad dia. Dalam bising itu dan ini, tapi at the end, dia yg mengalah, tak merajuk lama. Not too cliche right?

For the first question, susah. Breakup sebab dah sampai waktu. Mungkin ada alasan lain, dia suspect aku cheating, or dia yg cheated. Or dia tak sabar nak kahwin tapi aku belum ready. Or whatever reasons yg valid utk breakup. Kau kecik lagi, apa tahu pasal love and breakup! Haha *sambung hirup milo aku. Tak tahu malu

Order sendiri please. Pikir aku tak yah minum? *Another jelingan maut. Bukan makan saman pun🙄🙄🙄

Asal tanya?
Saja.

And another and beribu topik perbualan dibuka and tutup.

Jam kul 11.30pm.

Kau kerja esok kan? Tak reti nak balik?
A'ahh kerja. Tak macam kau. HAHAHA

Semua balik ke rumah masing2 dgn kenderaan masing2. Tak reti carpooling hahaha

*Baring atas katil, imaginasi tak reti nak tidur.
Kenapa bercinta bila nanti akan breakup?
Sebab dah masanya? Cinta pun ada expired date ke?

Kalau tak, kenapa byk drama, lagu heart broken dihasilkan?
Manusia pun ada expired date. Kita tak tahu. Rahsia Tuhan. Amal ibadat cukup tak? Hurmmmm

Kadang2 banyak sangat kenapa leads tu sakit kepala to insomnia pastu salah alarm clock kenapa x berbunyi bila kena bangun pagi. Hahaha

*The end*

Not so mini story kan? Macam piece of memories yg ditambah msg utk di-fiction-kan. Terasa sangat gothic, mellow... negative? Entah.

Since spring dh smpai kat korea jepun and sme tempat yg tgh spring, mungkin patut tulis something more bright and less kenapa. Hahaha

🎧It’s so funny
I try to turn things back
We try to ignore it
But at this point
How can we love again?🎶🎶

Just some lyrics dari lagu mellow yg tgh dengar. Haha

So, sweet nightmare 🌃
Salam